on second thought

i misspoke the other day. things aren't closer to normal. i don't think so, anyway. a week ago today things were normal. a week ago right now sagan hadn't attacked max yet and everything was fine. things have changed. the attack took place a week ago today. and now sagan is dead. and max still looks horrible, but better than he did. kara had surgery a few days ago and still is in a lot of pain. she's off work this week and is taking a week off from school as well, probably for emotional reasons as much as physical ones. it's still weird to me that sagan is gone; it's weird that i sat there with her on the floor of the exam room in the vet's office and watched her die. the house is emptier without her. i'm much more affected by this than i was by rumble's sudden death back in december. no offense, rumble sweetie. there was just so much terror surrounding sagan's demise.

anyway. things will normalize in time, of course. kara made the bed yesterday, changed the sheets, and usually bed-making day is dog-washing day, but there's no sagan to wash any more. (max is too fragile to bathe properly, so he just gets brushed out really well.) so things aren't normal yet. max should get his drains out today; his appointment is in about an hour.