3 discrete thoughts

1.
yesterday i started training for a new, but likely temporary, facet of my job. during august 2 or 3 days a week i'm to go to the office and do some low-end quality assurance work. if a transcriptionist leaves multiple blanks in a report or otherwise deems the report unfit for inclusion in a patient's electronic medical record, i look at and listen to the report and fill in the blanks (if i can) or otherwise make it fit. one of the transcriptionists who usually does this is taking a chunk of august off, and i'm filling in. for me it's a welcome change of pace. (and provoking of the memory that it was 1 year 2 days ago that i left the office to work at home.)

2.
i miss max. for a few days immediately following his death i felt bad about the continuing passage of time, about our lives going on without him, about leaving him behind. i wanted time to stop at least for a while so i could think about him, remember him, be with him, keep him close, without worrying about other aspects of my life going forward. (perhaps in this regard i'm the opposite of kara?) i still do feel bad about that, our going on and his not, but i suppose things are getting better. it's already been nearly a week, and that in and of itself hurts.

3.
meanwhile, i've been reading fun home by alison bechdel and it's terrific. it's a graphic memoir about her own coming out and about her father's homosexuality (the latter giving her a connection to kara's complicated upbringing). of course i've long been a fan of ms bechdel's strip. i highly recommend this book as well as others by her.