snow

there was snow on the ground when i got up at around 2 o'clock, and there's snow on the ground now. not terribly much, a quarter of an inch, half an inch? i woke up at about 12:30 from a bad dream and couldn't get back to sleep. i dreamed that kara died, that i woke up beside her and her mouth and eyes were filled with flies. it wasn't nice. and then i was awake and thinking about what i would do then. i don't even want to write about this, for fear i'll actually have to deal with it. the image was too vivid to shut out. what would i do immediately, and what would i do in the coming weeks and months? all of our stuff, the dogs? terrible things to think about. anyway. the snow won't last. i don't think it's precipitating at all right now, but it's going to be in the low 40s today, and it will probably rain. i have to leave for work in about 3 hours and i don't know what i'm going to do in the meantime.