lower

i guess i've been feeling kind of low the past couple of days, without direction. i'm off today, i don't have to work at all, there's nothing i really have to accomplish. but i want to do something. but i don't know what. i'll probably end up driving around a bit. i don't know.

but here's a snap of eliot interrupting my workday yesterday. and there's yellow curled atop the monitor.

i'm 213/861 (roughly 24.74%) of the way through bleak house. i like it, i do, but sometimes i do wish for a faster pace. i'm going ahead with it, though. no stopping now.

i haven't done any writing for a while; that probably adds to my current bleak outlook. i should write today but i don't know if i want to. it's more that i want to want to do something than i actually want to do something.

i had another quarter of my mouth professionally cleaned yesterday. i like my hygienist, and anesthesia is certainly a good thing. the remaining half gets cleaned 2 weeks from today in one appointment, and my surgery is 4 weeks from today. i'm trying to tease some facial hair from my cheeks to cover the bruises that will result, which is rather a ridiculous notion. i've never been able to grow a full beard.