status quo

i'm still coughing. it's been 4 or 5 or 6 weeks now. kara says i should see my doctor, and i probably should. my throat doesn't really hurt, but sometimes during a coughing fit my sternum aches a bit. i'm going to spend the vast majority of this weekend in bed, i do believe.

i saw a new therapist the other day, on tuesday. she seems quite nice. of course, i suppose she's supposed to seem quite nice, and be someone i'm comfortable talking to. but so far it's good. we talked about a great deal of things in that first session - my career goals and ambitions (and lack thereof), my lack of discipline and decision-making skills, my writing, my wife, my father. i'm going back this coming monday, the 23rd, after work. i hope my insurance covers a good chunk of these sessions, as this woman is expensive.

of course, my problems seem rather tame and unimportant in the scheme of things. it's not as if i've suffered such a calamitous life. things are basically good. i have a good marriage and a job i usually like okay and that pays me just fine. i have a fixed-rate mortgage. i'm keeping up on my bills. i have not-insignificant credit card debt but i'm chipping away at that. i'm just a little freaky about a few little emotional things, and confused about some other things, that all. my problems, to me, feel very privileged. but still. things could always be better.

tomorrow is the transcription department's qa manager's last day on the job. as i believe i've said, she's the 3rd qa manager we've had in as many years. we can't seem to keep one happy enough to stay longer than a year. i've been thinking about applying for the position, but now, especially after talking with my therapist the other day, i'm considerably less sure that that's something i want. i don't think i'm really management material. at the moment i'm leaning toward maintaining my current position as a transcriptionist and working on my discipline as far as writing and exercising.