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so i'm frightened. i put this movie on our netflix list some months ago, because i want to see it. as do a lot of people, i have a perhaps morbid fascination with the events of that day 5 years ago.

i put the movie relatively high on the list, but not at the very top, as i wasn't sure i wanted to see it right away. i expected terrific demand for it. i expected to see long wait or even very long wait by the title in my queue.

but no! i visit netflix and it turns out a copy of this movie was shipped to me yesterday! it might well arrive today! holy crap! (we're also getting this - different but also scary.)

kara and i saw the version that was on a&e some months back and i was shaking the entire time. except for the very end, when they rush the cockpit and they don't show the actual crash. can you believe i felt gypped? i don't always pretend to understand myself.

so i'm going to go through it again. watch the theatrical-release version of this terrible story. were the proceeds from this movie given to families of victims or to rumsfeld or something? i'm still not 100% down with the whole concept of this movie, dramatizing the terror attacks. it does seem exploitative. i imagine they got permission if not blessings from the appropriate people. i hope.

regardless, we're going to watch it this weekend, maybe on saturday. i'm already nervous.

maybe i'm a freak for wanting to watch it. well, no, i guess i'm not. arguably it's an allegory of the human condition, and i'm very drawn to the concept of facing one's own death. i just wish it weren't a true story.