it'd have to be a real big woman

the title of this post is from the movie arthur, in which dudley moore plays a lovable billionaire drunk, and it comes when the woman his father wants him to marry says, "a real woman could stop you from drinking." i always liked his response to that line. apparently dudley moore died in 2002. i don't know if i knew that. anyway. i probably just wasn't paying attention.

the ultrasound tech asked me the other day if i was a heavy drinker and a couple of weeks ago ginsberg asked me the same thing. i didn't know how to answer the question. maybe it's a matter of, if i'm hesitant about the answer, it means i drink too much?

i've cut down on my drinking considerably since i learned my lab results were wonky. during the period immediately before my initial ginsberg visit i was drinking maybe two or three beers in an evening. that was more than usual; usual was one or two in an evening. when kara and i open a bottle of wine, we finish it, and we split it about evenly.

perhaps that's drinking a lot, but i certainly know people who drink more than this.

the other night kara and i went out to dinner and we shared a bottle of wine. in the middle of last week - tuesday i think - yes, the night kara took sagan to the vet and we learned about her knee - we also shared a bottle of wine. aside from that i've had almost no alcohol.

well - i have a bottle of kahlua on the table in the kitchen and i splash a bit into my coffee occasionally and occasionally i have some with milk. but that particular bottle on the table for about two weeks and it's more than half full i think.

(i like girly creamy drinks like white russians and kara likes manly drinks like whisk[e]y, neat. it's just the way it is with us.)

so what's my point? i suppose i don't think i drink top much. of course, with my steatohepatitis, perhaps i shouldn't be consuming alcohol in any form ever again. ugh. i mean, i could handle that, though i would miss it a bit. ginsberg, when i told him i was having two or three beers daily, advised me to cut down, and i certainly did. then the ultrasound tech on friday asked if i was a heavy drinker and i said i didn't feel like i was.

but am i?