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i had a couple of interesting dreams last night. at 11:30, after about 2 hours of sleep, i woke after a dream about a tsunami. i was on the beach and i saw the wave coming. i turned my back on the wave and saw a building, and knew the wave would be throwing me splat against that building in a matter of seconds. i woke up and peed. then at 1:30 i woke up after dreaming about tom hanks. i was behind a bar, where i wasn't working, and trying to find a glass that wasn't broken or dirty so i could pour him the drink he wanted. he was a bit impatient. then i woke up again at about 4 because eliot was being a nudge, and here i am. there was a lot more to both dreams but i didn't write them down at the time, unfortunately, and they're pretty much gone now.

recently i read this new yorker article about icu care (and shared it with my fellow [can i say "fellow" if all but 2 of them are women?] transcriptionists) and this one about diary writing (though mostly diary writing by famous folks), which made me think of my blogging and also of reading pepys, which my dad has read or at least has been reading. there's a lot of pepys.

and i'm still reading bare and it's still fascinating to me. it's a good book; ms eaves is intelligent and thoughtful. there are a lot of conflicting thoughts in my head about strip clubs and it's a bit weird to be thinking of them again so much after so many years. when i was a senior in college i did my sociology thesis on a small-town bar (that's the only kind of bar they had in the small town where my college was) but if i had it to do over again i'd do it on strip clubs. it's strange and confusing while also exhilarating, that world. i still want to know more about it, to understand it, if possible.

my job is still mostly good, though kara's increasingly frustrated with hers. she wants out bad and her hope is at a low. the management where she is seems to be floundering. the management where i am runs hot and cold and the interpersonal skills often leave a lot to be desired - though what can one expect from those in a job where you wear headphones all the time?